Could I Have Bi-Polar Disorder?

OK. I'm schizo affective and bipolar. Mental illness varies from person to person. You definitely have something. Bipolar 2 cycles faster than bipolar 1 and to me it sounds like you have that or schizo affective disorder. I don't know if schizo affective disorder requires a hospitalization for a diagnoses but bipolar 1 does. I think you have some sort of illness. You might want to get help from a psychiatrist but I'm warning you that most medications cause weight gain, make you tired, and don't help very well. I take lithium, lamictal, and invega, and I am still all messed up with bipolar symptoms. It's frustrating. Medications can help. If I don't have an episode than I'll know if they are helping me. If you have an episode you will get mania, like you were describing with the anger, tears, and everything. If you go crazy, like I have, your mania will spin into psychotic thinking and you will get false beliefs. See a psychiatrist. I don't know what else you could do. I take medications because they can help, but the doctors don't understand the brain fully. Something about using a brain to understand a brain makes it beyond us I believe. Try not to take any medication, but if you must, do it.